warm

Comments (0) | Thursday 30 April 2009

to get the decision of your future it is always not easy.
it is as difficult as getting the moon from the sky.

we went sunset bistro last night again
and we were have a great night though.

i watched Xmen, but i could not see anything
i felt so exhausted.
tiring of cant make up any concrete mind.
i gastric, i cud not take any food, i faint, and i am not happy.

so talks and critical thinking over my problems and my situation,
ive made up my mind, that might not cheer pals, but they will know me.
its not saying im giving up any of it.
im just making some choices that i think i might have at the moment.
i am still have the passion in my mind.
i will go get it thru the path i chose today.

i am lonely.
i do not know what i can do.
but i try to do wat the best i could.
show me some love and warmness.


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lucky again

Comments (1) | Monday 27 April 2009

so hard to breath right now.
I LOOK BACK TO MY LIFE SO FAR,
why im achieving nothing,
why i feel i have nothing on hand,
i studied, but why i feel i alcumulate nothing.

Let me breath.
Why I cant breath.
give me a way to run my life.

I cant remember any good thing,
people are achieving things in life, aprroaching well
I felt nothing
empty

unsecure at allll

i am 24.
i am nothing
i am 24
i graduated in uk
but i quit my job
i tot go for good
but i am still here
i am 24 with direction less

and i have no luck.


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Where are ur ego?

Comments (0) | Sunday 26 April 2009

THE MONTH of April
is going to end soon.

I am glad finally i could get rid of these days' nightmares.
I am not really able to cheer up, Many times of 'phew, finally lucks pick up again' but ended up i need to know the facts of 'continuosly' and the terms of non-stop.

I fell from my high ego to without any confident to trust any thing will good happen on me. The planning and used to be able to think mindset has swifted away from myself. I dunno whether my decision were right or messup. Then i gave up my firewall and went for tarot-reading. still, I am speechless to the incidents happen on me, i tried not to think it as a disaster, i think its a test for a higher challenge in life. I faced the unknown virus and totally unpredictable sudden changes. People named it a life with pages of stories, I named it a life with tiring tear sheet.

I am always inside my secure zone, always a 'no' people. I do not want to risk, secureness is very important than TRY to me.I look like I am easy going and open minded.

Unpredictable failures really knockdown confidence and ego, People became smaller and smaller when facing giant questions and obstacle, every acts and trial are troublesome, no answer and not as the same thing u putting into it.


What should I do.

I want to do that, but why i stretch but i still reach nothing.
should i just stay and reach the nearest instead of a faraway one?


Please let me settle all these lengthy unstoppable disaster.

Let me live again with a reason.

Let me happy again, and sleep well.


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Back to The Root

Comments (0) | Saturday 11 April 2009











回到爷爷老家之旅 没有真的想像事怎么一回事
只知道是客家村 亲戚可不少
涌来的亲友 记住名字还有辈分 因为难逢一面 这一别 也许很久很久以再见
乡下气息很好 就是卫生少了些 那么久历史的它真正留下来的人 也就是慢慢过日子的老人家和小孩。


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