rendezvous...

to get the decision of your future it is always not easy.
it is as difficult as getting the moon from the sky.

we went sunset bistro last night again
and we were have a great night though.

i watched Xmen, but i could not see anything
i felt so exhausted.
tiring of cant make up any concrete mind.
i gastric, i cud not take any food, i faint, and i am not happy.

so talks and critical thinking over my problems and my situation,
ive made up my mind, that might not cheer pals, but they will know me.
its not saying im giving up any of it.
im just making some choices that i think i might have at the moment.
i am still have the passion in my mind.
i will go get it thru the path i chose today.

i am lonely.
i do not know what i can do.
but i try to do wat the best i could.
show me some love and warmness.

so hard to breath right now.
I LOOK BACK TO MY LIFE SO FAR,
why im achieving nothing,
why i feel i have nothing on hand,
i studied, but why i feel i alcumulate nothing.

Let me breath.
Why I cant breath.
give me a way to run my life.

I cant remember any good thing,
people are achieving things in life, aprroaching well
I felt nothing
empty

unsecure at allll

i am 24.
i am nothing
i am 24
i graduated in uk
but i quit my job
i tot go for good
but i am still here
i am 24 with direction less

and i have no luck.

THE MONTH of April
is going to end soon.

I am glad finally i could get rid of these days' nightmares.
I am not really able to cheer up, Many times of 'phew, finally lucks pick up again' but ended up i need to know the facts of 'continuosly' and the terms of non-stop.

I fell from my high ego to without any confident to trust any thing will good happen on me. The planning and used to be able to think mindset has swifted away from myself. I dunno whether my decision were right or messup. Then i gave up my firewall and went for tarot-reading. still, I am speechless to the incidents happen on me, i tried not to think it as a disaster, i think its a test for a higher challenge in life. I faced the unknown virus and totally unpredictable sudden changes. People named it a life with pages of stories, I named it a life with tiring tear sheet.

I am always inside my secure zone, always a 'no' people. I do not want to risk, secureness is very important than TRY to me.I look like I am easy going and open minded.

Unpredictable failures really knockdown confidence and ego, People became smaller and smaller when facing giant questions and obstacle, every acts and trial are troublesome, no answer and not as the same thing u putting into it.


What should I do.

I want to do that, but why i stretch but i still reach nothing.
should i just stay and reach the nearest instead of a faraway one?


Please let me settle all these lengthy unstoppable disaster.

Let me live again with a reason.

Let me happy again, and sleep well.

回到爷爷老家之旅 没有真的想像事怎么一回事
只知道是客家村 亲戚可不少
涌来的亲友 记住名字还有辈分 因为难逢一面 这一别 也许很久很久以再见
乡下气息很好 就是卫生少了些 那么久历史的它真正留下来的人 也就是慢慢过日子的老人家和小孩。

i gave up piano when i was young, i thought forceful, and dun patiently practice.
so i felt so much stress by that time...
recently found this from my brother and its simple if you wanna play a song.

the first one i practice, but still not familiar - if i were a boy


tmr will practice more song :)
though not expert, but playing is fun, since i always wanted to play canon in d one day :) maybe on my own wedding...

ahaha...

can i meet someone like this?
if i were lucky enough...


Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, feel the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning around
you hold me right here right now

。可以直接了當的恨一個人比較舒服。
应该说去恨 总比逃避来得了当
朋友说不知道为什么我可以忍受一些感受 谁都不讲
你说勇敢 我却说这是我的懦弱
我不要说的事代表我还不知所所措。

盈问，你要拍拖吗
我说不要 不知道
失败过的人 到现在更清楚什么样的人不适合在一起。
我这样的人 还会遇到什么样的人。
我想大概是可以交谈的人
可以沟通
可以和家人相处
可以互相尊重 有商良。

那就是家人。
没有吧。 根本就不太可能轮到我。因为没有人受得了不太出门
每天都和家人在一起。我就喜欢这样闷着.。。

No one lucky

大概3，4年前发现‘方大同’ 这个很简单的名字。
听到的就是 这首春风吹。
我很兴奋给哥哥听 那是我们都觉得 有着流行的陶吉吉的转音 周杰伦的创意。
可是我觉得 特别的是他的鼻音和喉咙。
再来是这首

然后样子越变越主流

专辑里面 最喜欢的一首歌
可能你会觉得’就是很方大同‘ 感动的是他总是简单且多层次的电琴乐 和少不了的喇叭～

让我觉得很舒服 很soul的词 很贴的duet。

更多： http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sKASWjGMeRs&feature=PlayList&p=CC5F56F83F9C9571&index=0&playnext=1

每个人有些时候 都会想要隐形。

感到蒙羞 忧虑 不安时，都想要隐形起来。
连harry potter都把他父母给他的遗产－隐形斗篷当秘密武器～
我好几年前 开始隐形了厚重的眼镜
我第一次带上的那一刻 和相熟的验眼师 破口而出：“我好像第一次可以wide angle宽屏的清楚看见！”

因为那以后 我看不清楚 就是很没安全感。
我家人最高纪录者 应该是我哥 他可以同时拥有10副眼镜！
我顶多也五副。
拥有视觉的我们 多幸福！

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WOO~ 小鬼's another product is coming up!!
how i wish i can wear and buy too!!!
one of the photos is the interview btw bounty hunter and 小鬼 at bang magazine taiwan!

especially in love with the stars in the front tee, actually i prefer the white with red stars ( dunno why i would always cnt escape from the match of red n white!)
isnt it just cool, with a cargo color pants n flipflops with cap? might throw on rayban too if im rich enuff ~~~~ others than cap, might just throw a grassed-beach-style hat , the color mood is just ... so waikiki!!!!

Unbelievably ive lost writing here for ages.
how could i?

basically whatve i done for the previous time? wowooo...
nothing much than working, then now doing almost nothing!
but i found another new interest, is to sell of all my extra-extra-assets ^^

yes yes~ i have tons of "assets" to sell to earn some living.
cant even live a life though, but the instinct of A R I E S just can't always let go of HER belongings.

*** POSSESSIONS OF EXTRA NEEDS OF ASSET IS UNHEALTHY ***

March is here, and I am going to stay healthy.
how could year 2009 going to slip away again 'unconciously'?

now is 05:39:16
i had smell of cigarrattes all over my clothes which i really hate.
i just finished a clip a song that delighted.

my neighbour already woke up, i heard their voice out side the gate.
im still awake.
im actually tired... very much.
but i feel like i wanna stay awake here.
i love the feeling of staying at home.
talking to my parents, watching tv, and surf the internet
* to be precise, im bidding on ebay and waiting for the ending hour!

i went out with friends, i stayed talking on the phone with my brother
we talk everything, ... almost everything.

am i living the life i wanted?
but what i really want?

i used to love the print sector.
still im in love with prints
is that all gonna end up like wat ive plann..?
then what have i ... planned?

what was it wat was it????

recently when i out for shooting i went to kl city.. where everywhere is jam
but there s one good reason i wouldnt get mad and throw temper ...
i have time to enjoy the city.
i have time to observe the city i live in for a while.

we are lucky we have own vehicles, there are still plenty out there taking public transport thruout the busiest time ever in a day.

i am a public transport user and pedestrian too.
but back in england.
public transport is really a great invention in grouping ppls from place to place.
pulling them together will helps the traffic so much better.
at least not everyone is driving.
even if u have no destination, just hoop on until u find the best scene u want.
how wonderful, i love lrt.
but it just isnt yet so seductive to abandon my lil wheels away to sweat in the lrt with a bunch of ppls, NO AIR!