rendezvous...

在倒数2009最后的15分钟抵达家 扭开电视 刚好来得及台北倒数计时
每年一样的时候 我会收看一样的101倒数 那是最漂亮的烟火 世界最高绽放的花朵
赏心悦目之余 为2010许愿也是必定环节

我希望一切顺心 家人朋友身体健康还是最重要
工作顺利 还有开心

开心最重要 只要开心 什么都好。

我要为明天前往泰国做准备 终于可以放松全身按摩
旅行和假期 最好去可以听不懂对方语言的地方 因为连耳朵都放松 不是很好吗？

我要放松 我要活在当下 想做什么就做。
我要一个不一样的2010
不一样的25岁。

虽然我还没有找到我的林方文 还没有除夕之歌
希望他在灯光不远处 等我。

晚安新年快乐

越遥远的距离 越美丽。

歌名: 愛得太遲
演唱: 古巨基
附註:
作曲: 楊鎮邦@宇宙大爆炸
編曲: 雷頌德
填詞: 林夕

我過去　那死黨　早晚共對
各也紮職以後　沒法暢聚
而終於相約到　但無言共對　疏淡如水

日夜做　見爸爸　剛好想呻
卻霎眼　看出他　多了皺紋
而他的蒼老感　是從來未覺　太內疚擔心

最心痛是　愛是太遲
有些心意　不可等某個日子
盲目地發奮　忙忙忙其實自私
夢中也習慣　有壓力要我得志

最可怕是　愛需要及時
只差一秒　心聲都已變歷史
忙極亦放肆　見我愛見的相知
要抱要吻要怎麼也好
偏要推說等下一次

我也覺　我體質　彷似下降
看了症得到是　別要太忙
而影碟　都掃光　但從來未看　因有事趕

日夜做　儲的錢　都應該夠
到聖誕　正好講　跟我白頭
誰知她開了口　未能挨下去　已恨我很久

錯失太易　愛得太遲
我怎想到　她忍不到那日子
盲目地發奮　忙忙忙從來未知
幸福會掠過　再也沒法說鍾意

愛一個字　也需要及時
只差一秒　心聲都已變歷史
為何未放肆　見我愛見的相知
要抱要吻要怎麼也好
不要相信一切有下次

相擁我所愛又花幾多秒　這幾秒
能夠做到又有多少
未算少　足夠遺憾忘掉

多少抱憾　多少過路人
太懂估計　卻不懂愛錫自身
人人在發奮　想起他朝都興奮
但今晚未過　你要過也很吸引

縱不信運　你不過是人
理想很遠　愛於咫尺卻在等
來日別操心　趁你有能力開心
世界有太多東西發生
不要等到天上俯瞰



。。。。。。。。

我觉得我生病了。
我莫名觉得很空虚 不知道自己还可以做什么
又好像什么都做不了。

我觉得很飘
什么事情都觉得做不好。
野不知道我可以做什么。
我应该是一个非常清楚自己要什么的人 可是我又在哪里。
是我应对困难的能力下降 还是我根本没有能力？
我的生活就是差一点什么不能安定
一到周末 直接回家 没有什么太多的别的安排 没有涟漪的期待
野不能不回家。

想去做的事很多 平常很多事我都可以一个人做很多事情
一个人逛街 一个人吃饭 一个人喝茶看书 一个人逛二手市场 一个人逛大卖场选蔬菜选水果做便当弄汤水
一个人。。。

可是就是很多事 一个人就是没有办法振奋的完成
比如说看鬼片 寻美食 踏青放风筝骑脚踏车吹吹风流流汗 吃火锅办主题派对 。。。

然后周末还是回家吧
然好周日回去又是工作的五天。

是这样的吗？
我的二十四岁
是应该为接下来的日子 做打算。

会有人 和我一起听古典乐爵士混合中西老歌 然后很想飘飘起舞吗
会有人愿意陪我省钱然后一起背包旅行看世界？
会有人愿意和我一样为怀旧而兴奋蹦跳吗？
会有人不介意别人怎么说愿意一直陪伴在我身边吗？
会有无论过马路，跨高桥，跳深河，手都不会放开吗？

还会有豁然心跳的人出现吗？

"...这样 好吗？"

a first weekend i m not going home after 3 months.

Its been a while I did not blog.

I couldn wait to write somthing now.

当你自己已经是个负面思想者。
这时候有两种情况 ：
1。你会遇见更负面思想者 或
2。你会遇见正面使者拯救你 引领你离开黑暗面。

为什么人类会有这麽复杂的思想？

简单的是人类构造 还是人类的外表。


我想让脑袋empty cache..清清脑袋 让我休息一天。

when u and the entire peoples look for something at the same time, it is just about your stamina and the perserverance.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING NOW, S?

I just talk with my girl from singapore.
I am so happy to hear that she is happy, at the same time, I am also lost while listen to her hapiness, cos i reflected to myself.
She telling me, she was like never know the person she is now, but she is very happy, relaxing, and totally run out from the way she used to be. Thats the way. I suddenly knew what i do not want. I suddenly narrow down what i want. i guess that is what others used to say, When you cant get what you want, change your method.

when you thinks, everyway seems like a cul de sac, turn around, look around.
When there's a need, there's always a way.

As long as you happy.
as long as you happy.
as long as, .....
happy!

do you realize how ur heart beat actually?

recently i always heard it beat weakly. its hitting hard and low.
Every movement i take i feel my adrenaline went up and down, sometime while i just do some chores but i felt im goin to fall...

alot of unknown voices in my mind.
the more noisy and happening place i went, i felt uneasy... so much hurting myself. i donno why...
but when i stop down I don't know what i can do to make myself better.

The way I thought was not right.

I read a guru's feature in a mag i subscribed, she is a real idol for me.
she design books, design publications with all possibilities would happen on a flatland.
Eventually I am very very tiny, like a dust. I felt like crying to read her words and description of what she achieved so far.Have everyone also felt the same when they do not know wheres the way to go to reach where they wanna go? where I should go and where i COULD go?

Its right to be wrong, i heard paul arden's words.
but how can a wrong risked to taken u further or more distanced ?

／／ 什么样的自己才是自己／／

你怀疑过自己吗？
人的能耐到底极限在哪里？
你试过很努力捂住耳朵 不听不看也不问吗？
你选择的，请问你用什么方法让它不要过期？
我最近很常在看身边察肩而过的人 他们看起来都过的很好 新加坡拥挤地铁站上每一站走进来的人们 都有很明显的去向。 灵市闹区每个人身上都有强烈使命。

热闹的夜晚 一群出来party的友人 热闹的包厢 让我更怀疑 这是你要的吗？
你想你的生活应该被什么事情围绕？你热爱某件事 怎么忍心不努力做到过了自己那关 才停下来看一看是否有什么是可以改进的。

你感觉孤独 却只有自己可以让自己可以撑下去。

when u know every facts.
when you know how ur heart feeling hurt, your body burden,
when you just want to stay healthy with family,
when you just want to keep simple mind and trashed the negative you.

i want to do watever makes me happy.
i am doing watever i can to makes me happy.
i choose my happy.
dont force me to happy
i will happy when i really feel happy.

only myself know eating peanuts will make me distress,
laying down on bed with blanket top to head,
playing spot the difference keep my mind distract and relax.

let me do this.
why my brain doesnt seems function well?
am i just at the limit.?
or im not actually capable to work up to expectation?

to get the decision of your future it is always not easy.
it is as difficult as getting the moon from the sky.

we went sunset bistro last night again
and we were have a great night though.

i watched Xmen, but i could not see anything
i felt so exhausted.
tiring of cant make up any concrete mind.
i gastric, i cud not take any food, i faint, and i am not happy.

so talks and critical thinking over my problems and my situation,
ive made up my mind, that might not cheer pals, but they will know me.
its not saying im giving up any of it.
im just making some choices that i think i might have at the moment.
i am still have the passion in my mind.
i will go get it thru the path i chose today.

i am lonely.
i do not know what i can do.
but i try to do wat the best i could.
show me some love and warmness.

so hard to breath right now.
I LOOK BACK TO MY LIFE SO FAR,
why im achieving nothing,
why i feel i have nothing on hand,
i studied, but why i feel i alcumulate nothing.

Let me breath.
Why I cant breath.
give me a way to run my life.

I cant remember any good thing,
people are achieving things in life, aprroaching well
I felt nothing
empty

unsecure at allll

i am 24.
i am nothing
i am 24
i graduated in uk
but i quit my job
i tot go for good
but i am still here
i am 24 with direction less

and i have no luck.

THE MONTH of April
is going to end soon.

I am glad finally i could get rid of these days' nightmares.
I am not really able to cheer up, Many times of 'phew, finally lucks pick up again' but ended up i need to know the facts of 'continuosly' and the terms of non-stop.

I fell from my high ego to without any confident to trust any thing will good happen on me. The planning and used to be able to think mindset has swifted away from myself. I dunno whether my decision were right or messup. Then i gave up my firewall and went for tarot-reading. still, I am speechless to the incidents happen on me, i tried not to think it as a disaster, i think its a test for a higher challenge in life. I faced the unknown virus and totally unpredictable sudden changes. People named it a life with pages of stories, I named it a life with tiring tear sheet.

I am always inside my secure zone, always a 'no' people. I do not want to risk, secureness is very important than TRY to me.I look like I am easy going and open minded.

Unpredictable failures really knockdown confidence and ego, People became smaller and smaller when facing giant questions and obstacle, every acts and trial are troublesome, no answer and not as the same thing u putting into it.


What should I do.

I want to do that, but why i stretch but i still reach nothing.
should i just stay and reach the nearest instead of a faraway one?


Please let me settle all these lengthy unstoppable disaster.

Let me live again with a reason.

Let me happy again, and sleep well.

回到爷爷老家之旅 没有真的想像事怎么一回事
只知道是客家村 亲戚可不少
涌来的亲友 记住名字还有辈分 因为难逢一面 这一别 也许很久很久以再见
乡下气息很好 就是卫生少了些 那么久历史的它真正留下来的人 也就是慢慢过日子的老人家和小孩。

i gave up piano when i was young, i thought forceful, and dun patiently practice.
so i felt so much stress by that time...
recently found this from my brother and its simple if you wanna play a song.

the first one i practice, but still not familiar - if i were a boy


tmr will practice more song :)
though not expert, but playing is fun, since i always wanted to play canon in d one day :) maybe on my own wedding...

ahaha...

can i meet someone like this?
if i were lucky enough...


Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, feel the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning around
you hold me right here right now

。可以直接了當的恨一個人比較舒服。
应该说去恨 总比逃避来得了当
朋友说不知道为什么我可以忍受一些感受 谁都不讲
你说勇敢 我却说这是我的懦弱
我不要说的事代表我还不知所所措。

盈问，你要拍拖吗
我说不要 不知道
失败过的人 到现在更清楚什么样的人不适合在一起。
我这样的人 还会遇到什么样的人。
我想大概是可以交谈的人
可以沟通
可以和家人相处
可以互相尊重 有商良。

那就是家人。
没有吧。 根本就不太可能轮到我。因为没有人受得了不太出门
每天都和家人在一起。我就喜欢这样闷着.。。

No one lucky

大概3，4年前发现‘方大同’ 这个很简单的名字。
听到的就是 这首春风吹。
我很兴奋给哥哥听 那是我们都觉得 有着流行的陶吉吉的转音 周杰伦的创意。
可是我觉得 特别的是他的鼻音和喉咙。
再来是这首

然后样子越变越主流

专辑里面 最喜欢的一首歌
可能你会觉得’就是很方大同‘ 感动的是他总是简单且多层次的电琴乐 和少不了的喇叭～

让我觉得很舒服 很soul的词 很贴的duet。

更多： http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sKASWjGMeRs&feature=PlayList&p=CC5F56F83F9C9571&index=0&playnext=1

每个人有些时候 都会想要隐形。

感到蒙羞 忧虑 不安时，都想要隐形起来。
连harry potter都把他父母给他的遗产－隐形斗篷当秘密武器～
我好几年前 开始隐形了厚重的眼镜
我第一次带上的那一刻 和相熟的验眼师 破口而出：“我好像第一次可以wide angle宽屏的清楚看见！”

因为那以后 我看不清楚 就是很没安全感。
我家人最高纪录者 应该是我哥 他可以同时拥有10副眼镜！
我顶多也五副。
拥有视觉的我们 多幸福！

PASTED from www.wretch.cc/blog/aestaipei


WOO~ 小鬼's another product is coming up!!
how i wish i can wear and buy too!!!
one of the photos is the interview btw bounty hunter and 小鬼 at bang magazine taiwan!

especially in love with the stars in the front tee, actually i prefer the white with red stars ( dunno why i would always cnt escape from the match of red n white!)
isnt it just cool, with a cargo color pants n flipflops with cap? might throw on rayban too if im rich enuff ~~~~ others than cap, might just throw a grassed-beach-style hat , the color mood is just ... so waikiki!!!!

Unbelievably ive lost writing here for ages.
how could i?

basically whatve i done for the previous time? wowooo...
nothing much than working, then now doing almost nothing!
but i found another new interest, is to sell of all my extra-extra-assets ^^

yes yes~ i have tons of "assets" to sell to earn some living.
cant even live a life though, but the instinct of A R I E S just can't always let go of HER belongings.

*** POSSESSIONS OF EXTRA NEEDS OF ASSET IS UNHEALTHY ***

March is here, and I am going to stay healthy.
how could year 2009 going to slip away again 'unconciously'?